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I feel worse when I am with you.
Aug. 25th, 2010 03:29 pm
Salvatore Ferragamo's Incanto Charms
I'VE.FINALLY.GOTTEN.MYSELF.THIS.BABY.AFTER.TALKING.ABOUT.GETTING.IT.FOR.YEARS (Kay, 2 years plus. Haha!)!!! (:
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I've successfully screwed up my body clock and nowadays I tend to sleep in when the sun rises for the next day. And during those wee hours in the morning, I tend to think a lot about things that've happened, what I've done and everything else that's related to it in any single way.
It's not funny how things that you thought would have been an awesome memory after that particular moment of your life - of which you thought that everything fell into the right-est and exact places you want them to be, turns out to serve as the most horrid and disgusting reminder of things that you don't want to remember at all. Not even the slightest bit of it.
I am really tried of feeling sad and mopey about things that I cannot do anything to make it better. I hate changes, and all the more I hate to fix things back to make the whole situation better when there's the other party going all out to make life hell for me.
Like why should I bother to make so much effort when no one appreciates it, and even initiate to mess things up for me?
It sure took some time for me to figure and sort things straight for myself - I finally got the answers that I've been asking myself ever since I've gotten a clearer head and a less-cloudy mind after I realized the shits that were being thrown upon me and the mess that I've landed myself into.
I've figured that I've got to set my priorities straight and move on from there.
And have to stop being so stupid to let those things get to me so easily again, to bring me down.
I know I won't regret the decisions that I've made, for like what I always say: Life can only get better, isn't it?
Cheers to being alive, still.
On a separate note, I dreamed of salmon sushi and it's odd - the fish is surrounding the rice instead of the other way round with the seaweed outside. Hmm.
And I'm going back to my studying/mugging for sem. papers.
Tillagain.
It's not funny how things that you thought would have been an awesome memory after that particular moment of your life - of which you thought that everything fell into the right-est and exact places you want them to be, turns out to serve as the most horrid and disgusting reminder of things that you don't want to remember at all. Not even the slightest bit of it.
I am really tried of feeling sad and mopey about things that I cannot do anything to make it better. I hate changes, and all the more I hate to fix things back to make the whole situation better when there's the other party going all out to make life hell for me.
Like why should I bother to make so much effort when no one appreciates it, and even initiate to mess things up for me?
It sure took some time for me to figure and sort things straight for myself - I finally got the answers that I've been asking myself ever since I've gotten a clearer head and a less-cloudy mind after I realized the shits that were being thrown upon me and the mess that I've landed myself into.
I've figured that I've got to set my priorities straight and move on from there.
And have to stop being so stupid to let those things get to me so easily again, to bring me down.
I know I won't regret the decisions that I've made, for like what I always say: Life can only get better, isn't it?
Cheers to being alive, still.
On a separate note, I dreamed of salmon sushi and it's odd - the fish is surrounding the rice instead of the other way round with the seaweed outside. Hmm.
And I'm going back to my studying/mugging for sem. papers.
Tillagain.
