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coolerthanthouBefore those phone calls, and a couple of messages, I was totally depressed.
R,
I'm pretty sure that you've done well. Playing have never been a problem to you; it's only right for you to play.
Please do not do anything wrong, and you know what I meant, and please please please don't think about it anymore. You've always been the one telling me all the "Positive" talks and I'm not very good at them, so yeah. Please, don't think about it anymore, and believe the impossible!
Have faith, and like what you've said: NO LOSS! (but if you wanna mention about your time, your strength... well...)
Have a goodnight sleep, and everything's gonna be alright.
"It's been a long day!"
&one last thing:
I won't abort it!!! It's just one day old!
---
(sigh)
What do you call that part of your body, that clenches up and provides you with nothing else but pain, when you've done a couple of situps the day before?
I can't laugh, I can't shout, I can't even sneeze!!!
And, because when I do all those mentioned above, that part of my body (or the muscles there) will clenches and I'll be in pain. I can't even stand/sit up straight, now. .______________________________________."
Many people were damn mean today, and kept telling me funny stuffs in class!
"HAHAHA, AH! PAIN! PAIN! PAIN!!! HA! PAIN!"
...
&Sneezing hurts the most. I really wonder why.
&Being Cheryl, I've declared tomorrow (or rather, later), to be a STUDY DAY!
Imma hit the library, and study my afternoon away!
Tillagain!
R,
I'm pretty sure that you've done well. Playing have never been a problem to you; it's only right for you to play.
Please do not do anything wrong, and you know what I meant, and please please please don't think about it anymore. You've always been the one telling me all the "Positive" talks and I'm not very good at them, so yeah. Please, don't think about it anymore, and believe the impossible!
Have faith, and like what you've said: NO LOSS! (but if you wanna mention about your time, your strength... well...)
Have a goodnight sleep, and everything's gonna be alright.
"It's been a long day!"
&one last thing:
I won't abort it!!! It's just one day old!
---
If anyone were to ask me now, I'll still state my stand that I'm still feeling very very very sore about the whole matter.
I know I should just snap out of it, and move on with life and yadayada. I know that you all meant well, and I really appreciate it, but it's really difficult, especially that I really treasure this friendship.
I'm feeling very sore, and whenever I got reminded of this issue, images of those times spent together just appeared and flooded my mind. I really treasured this friendship, but whenever I thought that I have tried my best to salvage it, you not doing anything to help, and everything just went wrong instead of what I've expected it to be, I was like, being slapped in the face, really hard.
Not that I'm not able to put it down, but I've regretted. I've regretted knowing you, right from the start. I want to be the Cheryl, in the first month in Temasek. She didn't even know that you existed, in the C, in Temasek. I want to be her, again.
Many a time, I always wondered, if there's not this whole dr project that we had for L, would I really know that you even existed in the C? I really wondered what will happen if there's never this whole thing coming along. Will I not know you? Will I not be feeling sore right now?
All those LNPCs, all those times spent together at the C+PRB, all those r.ningnongs+lotsaSCDLS, will all remain as memories, to me at least, and keep them at the back of my head. I know people will tell me to forget, why bother when the other party doesn't even seem to care? I don't know, but to me, these are the sweetest and priceless things that I will ever get to possess.
I really don't know about how you feel about all this. Maybe you're wondering why am I giving you the cold shoulder and everything, but honestly, I'm telling you here (and i don't even want to know whether you're reading or not) that I seriously don't know what's going on, and we just seemed to be drifting away, and yours truly tried to get back, but you're not doing something to help on your part either. And, you are the one who gave me the whole cold shoulder treatment, and I'm just being myself to treat you how you've been treating me. Please tell me what's wrong and if it's really my fault, please tell me! I'll apologize and I'll change! Tell me what's going on, and let us talk for hours, into the wee hours in the morning, again?
I know I should just snap out of it, and move on with life and yadayada. I know that you all meant well, and I really appreciate it, but it's really difficult, especially that I really treasure this friendship.
I'm feeling very sore, and whenever I got reminded of this issue, images of those times spent together just appeared and flooded my mind. I really treasured this friendship, but whenever I thought that I have tried my best to salvage it, you not doing anything to help, and everything just went wrong instead of what I've expected it to be, I was like, being slapped in the face, really hard.
Not that I'm not able to put it down, but I've regretted. I've regretted knowing you, right from the start. I want to be the Cheryl, in the first month in Temasek. She didn't even know that you existed, in the C, in Temasek. I want to be her, again.
Many a time, I always wondered, if there's not this whole dr project that we had for L, would I really know that you even existed in the C? I really wondered what will happen if there's never this whole thing coming along. Will I not know you? Will I not be feeling sore right now?
All those LNPCs, all those times spent together at the C+PRB, all those r.ningnongs+lotsaSCDLS, will all remain as memories, to me at least, and keep them at the back of my head. I know people will tell me to forget, why bother when the other party doesn't even seem to care? I don't know, but to me, these are the sweetest and priceless things that I will ever get to possess.
I really don't know about how you feel about all this. Maybe you're wondering why am I giving you the cold shoulder and everything, but honestly, I'm telling you here (and i don't even want to know whether you're reading or not) that I seriously don't know what's going on, and we just seemed to be drifting away, and yours truly tried to get back, but you're not doing something to help on your part either. And, you are the one who gave me the whole cold shoulder treatment, and I'm just being myself to treat you how you've been treating me. Please tell me what's wrong and if it's really my fault, please tell me! I'll apologize and I'll change! Tell me what's going on, and let us talk for hours, into the wee hours in the morning, again?
(sigh)
What do you call that part of your body, that clenches up and provides you with nothing else but pain, when you've done a couple of situps the day before?
I can't laugh, I can't shout, I can't even sneeze!!!
And, because when I do all those mentioned above, that part of my body (or the muscles there) will clenches and I'll be in pain. I can't even stand/sit up straight, now. .______________________________________."
Many people were damn mean today, and kept telling me funny stuffs in class!
"HAHAHA, AH! PAIN! PAIN! PAIN!!! HA! PAIN!"
...
&Sneezing hurts the most. I really wonder why.
&Being Cheryl, I've declared tomorrow (or rather, later), to be a STUDY DAY!
Imma hit the library, and study my afternoon away!
Tillagain!
