I want to be a coward, and run away.
Mar. 10th, 2008 08:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouI've just done a chinese e-leaning, plus a SS example qns on e-learning, couldn't download any ppt slides, and now, I'm feeling velly disgusted.
Disgusted with the workload, disgusted with the way everything is, in my life, right now.
I onced looked out of the window, looked down from the fifth floor, and it just came to my mind: what will happen if anything were to fall off, from here? All squashed and making a huge mess? Or will it be able to just stay how it was like before it was being thrown down?
I really thought about it, and I thought that the answer's quite obvious.
I thought about how he was, being all so nice, so caring towards the others, so kind to people, always being so understanding towards the others, always there for me whenever I needed someone to spend my afternoons with, the times he used to send me to school and everything, and everything was being wrapped up, with just one word: Karma.
I've always believed in Karma, as in what goes around, comes around.
But, why?!
I've always asked, but never getting a response.
He've done nothing wrong, to deserve this shit that he is in, right now.
I've asked a million "Whys" and I know it's not going to help.
The third party's words are like a verdict- all so strict and serious, and is nothing, but the fucking truth.
I always wanted to believe that the third party's just kidding, and playing around with us, but it's never the case.
&I hate it whenever I have to receive calls from anyone (like seriously), to go to H_, to meet them or whatever because _ is _ to the _, like again.
Okay, I can vaguely hear R, and Gongfucius at the back of my head, now- which is super scary, and I have no idea why!
R, TELL ME! ARE YOUR TALKS BRAIN WASHING LIQUIDS?!
:X
Now, my Father is saying that he forgot to wake me up in the morning before he leave the house for work (which is really the case), and me, miraculously can be able to wake up, to be able to make it for my remedial today, with just 4 hours of sleep.
Yeah, and not to mention the amount of comments + exclaimations + funny expressions from other people regarding my hair crisis, which I have to tie it up, with some loose strands coming out (that many said that I went to cut my hair), and with ME, wearing CONTACTS.
Great, the four hours of sleep is getting to me, and it's like 0912pm, right now.
What to do, when Youtube accomodates videos with cute guys for me to look at?!
hahah, shut up Cheryl- It's just one of your 1001 excuses.
Anyway,I do know that my entries are not happy and chirpy and well, bouncy as those I used to create and weave from faithwingz.blogspot to the earlier days of faithwingz.livejournal.
I'm velly sorry- Since things are velly screwed up for me, right now.
I can't help it, but to get everything out, and my only output, is my livejournal.
But, I really wanna thank those who have been constantly telling me to stay happy, and keep that smile on, and everything.
Really, I really appreciate you guys for being there, and you guys surely know who you are, so I don't have to list you guys out, and especially when I know you guys actually checked back to know what's going on in my life, as you all know that I don't tell my problems; I punch them out.
Thank you, but at the same time, I'm sorry.
Because this means more of this kind of posts/entries in the future.
}:<
Tillagain.
Disgusted with the workload, disgusted with the way everything is, in my life, right now.
I onced looked out of the window, looked down from the fifth floor, and it just came to my mind: what will happen if anything were to fall off, from here? All squashed and making a huge mess? Or will it be able to just stay how it was like before it was being thrown down?
I really thought about it, and I thought that the answer's quite obvious.
I thought about how he was, being all so nice, so caring towards the others, so kind to people, always being so understanding towards the others, always there for me whenever I needed someone to spend my afternoons with, the times he used to send me to school and everything, and everything was being wrapped up, with just one word: Karma.
I've always believed in Karma, as in what goes around, comes around.
But, why?!
I've always asked, but never getting a response.
He've done nothing wrong, to deserve this shit that he is in, right now.
I've asked a million "Whys" and I know it's not going to help.
The third party's words are like a verdict- all so strict and serious, and is nothing, but the fucking truth.
I always wanted to believe that the third party's just kidding, and playing around with us, but it's never the case.
&I hate it whenever I have to receive calls from anyone (like seriously), to go to H_, to meet them or whatever because _ is _ to the _, like again.
Okay, I can vaguely hear R, and Gongfucius at the back of my head, now- which is super scary, and I have no idea why!
R, TELL ME! ARE YOUR TALKS BRAIN WASHING LIQUIDS?!
:X
Now, my Father is saying that he forgot to wake me up in the morning before he leave the house for work (which is really the case), and me, miraculously can be able to wake up, to be able to make it for my remedial today, with just 4 hours of sleep.
Yeah, and not to mention the amount of comments + exclaimations + funny expressions from other people regarding my hair crisis, which I have to tie it up, with some loose strands coming out (that many said that I went to cut my hair), and with ME, wearing CONTACTS.
Great, the four hours of sleep is getting to me, and it's like 0912pm, right now.
What to do, when Youtube accomodates videos with cute guys for me to look at?!
hahah, shut up Cheryl- It's just one of your 1001 excuses.
Anyway,I do know that my entries are not happy and chirpy and well, bouncy as those I used to create and weave from faithwingz.blogspot to the earlier days of faithwingz.livejournal.
I'm velly sorry- Since things are velly screwed up for me, right now.
I can't help it, but to get everything out, and my only output, is my livejournal.
But, I really wanna thank those who have been constantly telling me to stay happy, and keep that smile on, and everything.
Really, I really appreciate you guys for being there, and you guys surely know who you are, so I don't have to list you guys out, and especially when I know you guys actually checked back to know what's going on in my life, as you all know that I don't tell my problems; I punch them out.
Thank you, but at the same time, I'm sorry.
Because this means more of this kind of posts/entries in the future.
}:<
Tillagain.
