Apology.

[coolerthanthou]

I'm seriously tired of all this nonsense that gets to me, every night.
It's like nightmares, traumatizing me every night.

I'm like really listening to my listener, and he told me to stay strong.
I did, and i'm still doing it.
But somehow, I fear. I fear that i wouldn't be able to hold on to it, and i might just break down and maybe not being able to pick myself up, again.
And, because concrete girl don't tear nor fall. They crashes down, and breaks into pieces.

Why can't i be just like any other teenagers around, living their crazy lifes, and going on with life, so happily?
The reason is kinda clear: I lost it. My ability to being able to smile and laugh genuinely. I totally forgot how to smile, how to laugh, how to be happy, and how to bask in the happiness, anymore.

I know this post is like so unhappy, and emo and everything.
I would love to put this on friends' lock, but since (most of) my friends aren't using Livejournal, i've decided not to.

I'm sorry, and i hafta apologise, if you guys keep seeing all this unhappy-emo posts coming and appearing here, because quite a number of stuffs had happened, and Cheryl;the one and only here is trying to accept and live with the harsh reality. Please don't blame me and only read if you're really bored, and if you don't like it, i suggest and feels strongly that you should click on that red button on your top-right-hand corner or simply punch the Alt-F4 key. Thankyou.

Goodnight, Tillagain.