Dry my eyes, so I won't show.

[coolerthanthou]

I just had a flash of a thought that suddenly came into my head while I was catching up on an episode of RPDR earlier. Goodness knows why it appeared at such a time (well, all those thoughts usually comes to me during the oddest moments..) but it definitely was something that I know that I have to keep reminding myself to prevent myself from getting all upset and down all over again since I've gotten myself over the last disappointment when it comes to this department.

That one day, it's all going to stop, exactly the way the last one did, and I'll be back to a square one.

It's pretty depressing to know that things have a high chance that it will turn out that way but I guess the worst part of it is that there's almost nothing that I can do to help salvage anything. It's like a black hole and the only way is down and things will be gone forever and no one will ever know where things went.

"Keep thinking happy thoughts" I tell myself a whole lot more lately.
But there will be things to keep me occupied, driving my mind into an overdrive.

If only I could hit Backspace and delete everything off and clean.
But say isn't all that's important.

Also because I am interested to knowing how things would eventually turn out.
Even if it were to break my heart.

I should go and get my stuffs ready for school and have them nails painted.
Ha.

Tillagain.