I feel you, gurl.

I am currently at work right now and really shouldn't be getting myself on Livejournal since my workload has never seem to cease the moment the explosion that have landed and while me and another staff are still suffering from the after-math since last week, but it's now nearing 8PM and after having to deal with some stupid people who doesn't know how to do things efficiently, scheduling posts on company's FB page, posting ads for company's happenings and also dealing with students who came down to do their Mock Papers (what a waste of their life and also mine, too. Ugh), I can safely tell the world that my mind is completely out.

Anything work related can just leave a message at the door.
My mind will try its best to pick it up tomorrow. Try.

Sigh work.

SO I took a much needed toliet break, and allowed myself to take a little break by looking at things on the internet (which are obviously not related to work stuffs..) and chanced upon an article about long distance (military) relationship that writes about the things the author didn't know what she was getting herself into when her husband gets deployed.

I consider myself a little bit luckier since I don't have to pack up and move around the way she does, but her article really hits home at some point (since I'm not a MilSpouse), especially when people around me gets to know about my relationship and expresses their concern for me (even until now) - which I really appreciate.. but there are still some things that gets the situation really awkward at times.

I don't blame the people who asked since they have no idea and it's very easy to like curiousity win in situations like this. Plus, they care about me so why would I fault them right?
But it absolutely irked me to no end when they mention that "I would have already known that all these is going to happen since the moment I got together with him.."

No.
NO NO NO.
NO NO NO NO NO._|_

I knew he would deploy.
I didn’t know that it was possible to feel scared, anxious, frustrated, stressed, angry, lonely, and overwhelmed all at once.

I knew he wore a uniform.
I didn’t know that it also symbolized how much control the military has over our life.

- http://www.semidelicatebalance.com/2016/01/24/2620/

SIGH.
It's still a long long way to go before he can finally come home for good.

Did I mentioned that my dinner was super interrupted with the students streaming in for their Mock Papers?
Yup, that happened.

Back to my neverending workload. Bai.
Tillagain.