In the clouds and in the wind, they said.

[coolerthanthou]

Don't let yourself feel worthless; Often through life you will really be at your worst when you seem to think best of yourself. And don't worry about losing your "personality", as you persist in calling it: at fifiteen you had the radiance of early morning, at twenty you will begin to have the melancholy brilliance of the moon, and when you are my age, you will give out, as I do, the genial golden warmth of 4pm. - F. Scott Fitzgerald, This side of Paradise.

Hello everyone, I am back on this platform with the thinking that I am safe from school for 2 mere weeks if we don't count MP works/trips to be done within this 2 weeks, that is. (:

Just dealt with the term tests and one really ridiculous project meeting (MP Woes, really) with one woman that has gone completely bonkers in thinking that my team is giving no hoots to the whole MP deal at all. Talk to the floor, woman, really. Even my hand can't be bothered with your ridiculous reasoning behind all that noise that comes out from your braced mouth.

I don't think words can ever justify my anger with regards to this even though I believe that words do bring a lot of impact to things that happened. It's just that the anger and emotions felt at that very point of time was too tremendous that it left me pretty much at a loss of words. It does not help at all that I have to deal with a (term test) paper immediately after that. Talk about pouring another tub of ice cold water over a freezing body.

Right. Bad analogy, but I hope you get my point.

The point of this entry wasn't all about how horrible the first term of my last semester have ended even though it surely took a majority of it when it comes to the emotions department. But also to mention about my new found freedom for a short span of 2 weeks for me to breathe and end this year off with a happier not, or so I hope.

People around me have been breathing in and out about how this year have passed by too quickly for them, or even to their liking, but I seriously beg to differ.
It has been ridiculously slow on my side that it's so annoying for me. I can't be any happier to close off the year really soon considering that my calendar shows that it's already 16 days into the last month of the year. And to top it off, I have been so put off by school and everything else on hand (which is MP because my life really revolves around that. Social life? Haven't heard of that term for what seems forever now and I kid you not.) that I have the grand sum of zero when it comes to feeling festive/soaking up the festive feel for whatever that's coming.

Christmas spirits have been tainted and dampened off by this one person who have walked in and now out and off my life (thankfully for the latter part) for good. And it's not convincing at all now for me to say that I used to like this time of the year with a majority of it due to Christmas.
I still do like this time of the year now though, for the rain and more rain that pours everyday. (Y)

This 2 weeks shall be the 2 weeks that I take to recuperate what I've lost during this span of time I spent in school doing absolutely everything that is required for me to graduate even though that I still have to go down to AMK to get things done FOR MP.

Such is my life, really.
What a complaints-filled post. Gah.

On a happier note, things have been lining themselves up for me and I cannot be happier and thankful for them. Social life is catching up on me (refer to above) and I can surely say now that I have times for friends and meetups to happen and take form. It sounds like I have really bad time management and all during the school term but trust me when I say that I really did try my best in that aspect. ):
Oh wells. /:

Hope everyone has been doing well during this span of time (especially when I was absent from this space) and stay warm everyone. The weather is going to stay cold and wet for some time!! (:
Happy Holidays, minna-sama.

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