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The Eternal Struggle.

If one were to write, okay. Make that anybody who writes would know how hard it is to actually perform the actual task shown above.
But I'm gonna try it out anyway since I had one hell of a roller-coaster ride today - of which it started with a plunge and only one slight rising part, which was really short-lived and I need an outlet.

Here I am, settling down in my seat and typing away, I seriously cannot fathom what I have been through today. Like seriously, is all these shits happening to me for real? I know my problems cannot be compared to the people in Africa or wherever that's seriously down and out, nor can my problems beat those without proper food and clean water, but hey. I cannot be bothered with them now when I can't even make out the head nor tail of the things that's happening around me, involving me, as selfishly as it may sound.

My day didn't exactly step out on the wrong note. I actually managed to catch the bus instead of missing one before my eyes and having to wait for another and only ended up a few mere minutes later than the time that my group said on the night before for the submission of our project. I remembered to bring all the stuffs I was supposed to bring, and all is well..

Until the first lesson - APEL. Names were called to talk about the term tests results and mine was skipped. I was honestly feeling that something is wrong. As ridiculous and sadistic (if you insist) as it sounds, I felt that my name should be called because I have so much faith that I screwed things up during the term tests.

And the moment I stepped out of the room, I was called back. -.-
Went up and sat down, insisting that my CP was lying that he's not going to 'talk' to me and that my results are okay, until he proved me wrong. He held me back because I failed my MStats2 by 7 marks and passed everything else - and actually better than what I've expected.

I AM COMPLETELY SPEECHLESS LAH!!

"Did you know that what you've conceptualized for the paper was wrong?"
"... " (Thinking: WTF. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!! WTF WTF WTF!!)
"No. I was thinking that things should be the other way round."
And my CP started to give me some maths questions to solve on the spot.

FML, SERIOUSLY.

But the other part, where I've gotten a better-than-expected pass grades for the rest was really comforting, considering that I haven't got the slightest bit of affection of the modules I am dealing with this semester. Ugh.

Then comes the part of the change of tutor for this particular module. I am damn unwilling for it to happen, but what else can I say and do? ):

Received package 3 in the afternoon, and tell me that the worst have yet to come, especially when I have to work with an almost moronic person in my group (Refer to previous post) and this is possibly the harder ones (since we've got one more to go) we have.

Rough day I had. Probably rougher than your pumice stone.
And I seriously need to pour all this out somewhere. I used to have a listening ear, until things happened between us and well, I lost more than just a companion, but also a friend in us even though it was said on to still being friends. But really. Who has been making all the efforts of maintaining this tainted relationship? I am very tired already, you know.

Yeah. I can talk to you if I needed somebody to talk to. But really. How do I even start?

"Hi. I have had a rough day. Can I talk to you?"

No. That's just plain weird.

Even though school starts late tomorrow, I'm going off now. Prolly going to see if there's City Hunter that's being uploaded or whatever. I can't mope around and feel like this all the way. I don't like sleeping with a heavy heart. ):

On a happier note, it's Eunice's birthday!! (True to the day of type!! Hahaha!!)

I didn't forget about it, and I hope you've had a blast!! I still love you many many despite not seeing you for a veh long time now!! ):

Till the next time I feel happier again. (:

P.s. Thanks for reading. I know it's a really long, pointless and wordy post. (: