Time to be independent. Like seriouslyyy.
Oct. 19th, 2010 03:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouI haven't been really able to rid what used to be in my head and I push the entire blame to the amount of time we knew each other and the times we spent together.
And yes, you can also say that I'm not strong enough when it's late at night and that's when I am completely alone. And prolly almost anyone can come and kill me mentally at this.. ungodly hour, I suppose.
And so, I was doing my usual online-routine and to find something's gone. Maybe it's a technical glitch on the other part of the Earth, but I choose not to think that way. I refuse that thinking to form fully in my head, to be exact.
Why let something linger and hanging on when you know that it's gonna turn its' back on you ultimately and bite off your head and swallow your heart up?
It's also time for me to grow more independent and to be stronger. After all, I have spent too much time dwelling on things that cannot be salvaged, things that are fixated with endings that audiences will throw their slippers and rotten eggs at, and of course, on things that robs you of the ability to be happy at the very mo.
And to anyone who knows about what the heck I'm talking about, please don't tell me if it's all back up, being active and running. I don't want to know and don't have the need to know anymore.
For I don't want to get the same splitting headache that I get every week and feel like slapping your face (cus of the headache. I don't slap people that often) whenever you're around. These few weeks have been awesome, for the love of mornings (even though I'm not a morning person).
Ah right. Will do something up for the lack of posts, and to fill the gaps in between.
Just felt like getting this out of the system first. (:
Time to wash up and get some sleepz.
Bridging program.. wasn't good enough for me to say that it's an okay.
Tillagain.
And yes, you can also say that I'm not strong enough when it's late at night and that's when I am completely alone. And prolly almost anyone can come and kill me mentally at this.. ungodly hour, I suppose.
And so, I was doing my usual online-routine and to find something's gone. Maybe it's a technical glitch on the other part of the Earth, but I choose not to think that way. I refuse that thinking to form fully in my head, to be exact.
Why let something linger and hanging on when you know that it's gonna turn its' back on you ultimately and bite off your head and swallow your heart up?
It's also time for me to grow more independent and to be stronger. After all, I have spent too much time dwelling on things that cannot be salvaged, things that are fixated with endings that audiences will throw their slippers and rotten eggs at, and of course, on things that robs you of the ability to be happy at the very mo.
And to anyone who knows about what the heck I'm talking about, please don't tell me if it's all back up, being active and running. I don't want to know and don't have the need to know anymore.
For I don't want to get the same splitting headache that I get every week and feel like slapping your face (cus of the headache. I don't slap people that often) whenever you're around. These few weeks have been awesome, for the love of mornings (even though I'm not a morning person).
Ah right. Will do something up for the lack of posts, and to fill the gaps in between.
Just felt like getting this out of the system first. (:
Time to wash up and get some sleepz.
Bridging program.. wasn't good enough for me to say that it's an okay.
Tillagain.
