I don't like the weather, anyway.
May. 30th, 2010 02:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouSo yeah, I fought. There's no winner, or at least that's how I see it.
Verbal, not physical. But still.
Everyone who've seen my phone's wallpaper would've known, and that was a reminder to myself, but little did I know that I have already been that way ever since all that nonsense starts to pile onto me.
I fight, and don't compromise. Not the slightest bit.
And make myself so miserable each and every single time.
(sigh)
I have so many things right now in my mind, which should be replaced by the preparation for my term tests. I have been really unproductive lately and this is not something nice, to the very least bit.
What if I were to just break down one fine day and let everything go?
Would I feel better then? I never dared to try, because I'm afraid that I wouldn't even have the strength to pick myself up after that. It's like self-destruction with no one else with you.
The thought is scary on its' own. Or at least that's how I see it.
On another note, I kept questioning myself, on how and why do I let myself to such a state where I can't help myself out this time round?
People were right about Karma, shits and everything else related to it.
Life sux and it's time for bed.
K bye.
Verbal, not physical. But still.
Everyone who've seen my phone's wallpaper would've known, and that was a reminder to myself, but little did I know that I have already been that way ever since all that nonsense starts to pile onto me.
I fight, and don't compromise. Not the slightest bit.
And make myself so miserable each and every single time.
(sigh)
I have so many things right now in my mind, which should be replaced by the preparation for my term tests. I have been really unproductive lately and this is not something nice, to the very least bit.
What if I were to just break down one fine day and let everything go?
Would I feel better then? I never dared to try, because I'm afraid that I wouldn't even have the strength to pick myself up after that. It's like self-destruction with no one else with you.
The thought is scary on its' own. Or at least that's how I see it.
On another note, I kept questioning myself, on how and why do I let myself to such a state where I can't help myself out this time round?
People were right about Karma, shits and everything else related to it.
Life sux and it's time for bed.
K bye.
