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Apr. 5th, 2010 12:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouAll good things must come to an end.
As cliche as it sounds, as annoying as it can be.
My what-seems-to-be endless and mindless holidays/vacation is ending today. I have to go to school for bridging programme tomo, and it's seriously like lessons and whatnots. I'm so sianed about it right now.
It seems like there's no perks when it comes to this, cus
1. I have to make new friends all over again.
2. I have two lessons tomorrow, and my friend, who is in the same course as me, is not in the same grouping as me for any sessions, at all.
3. I have to make new friends for the second time when it comes to the second lesson, after lunch, cus it's a totally different group from the first session.
And, making friends is never my thing.
Never. ):<
To be honest, I haven't had any holidays/vacation this long before, the longest one (before this) is usually only one month longth and is very used to those one week nonsense that are usually bombarded with either suppl. classes, remedials and Ccas. Hah.
For the record, I have worked for a month and experienced some backstabbing hypocritical bitches along the way and lied a lot to get ugly clothes out of the way, making their way to make the world an uglier place (during work, that is).
I have experienced the second heartbreak (the first one being in 2008), which really brought me down, and slapped me back to reality and not believe in something that I used to believe for all my life.
I have been through the most nerve-wrecking moment of my coming-18 years of my life. My body literally shook and my palms were cold and wet, and I nearly fainted when I went up that seat to collect what I have worked 5 bleddy years for.
Right after that moment of nerves, I had the chance to go through a very well-mixed of emotions rushing and gushing through every single atom of me, when I know that my hard work really paid off, and I've made myself very very proud, of well.. myself. Hahaha! I felt like I was out of this horrible world at the moment and everything felt so magical, and there's this bit of me, feeling afraid that everything might just be a dream and then when I woke up, there comes the reality, the nightmare slapping me, in my face.
It was then a lot of weeks and many trips were made to town, and every where else that I have always been wanting to go, with the people I've said to meet up and do catching up with! Those were the days where I spent money, and I have awesome company and genuine emotions as rewards. (:
Played for Dreams in Turquoise and really had fun with section. The practices, the backstage moments, and everything else that belongs to it. To say that I have enjoyed myself in it, is really an understatement. And not forgetting the moments spent with the people that I'm the most comfortable with. Nothing can ever beat that. ♥
Also, spending a lot of time at home, online, nua-ing and doing online bridging programme, and not knowing that time passes so quickly when I was just complaining that March seems to drag on for forever. Hahaha!
I also realize that I've become too whiny (for my own good), and my tongue have become too acidic.
Not to mention my body clock is so so screwed up. (sigh~)
Not good. Not good at all! ):
I am dreading for 9a.m. to come already. ):
Okay, time to go and prepare things for tomo. ):
Till I manage to survive and come back to tell the tale alive and in one piece, again.
As cliche as it sounds, as annoying as it can be.
My what-seems-to-be endless and mindless holidays/vacation is ending today. I have to go to school for bridging programme tomo, and it's seriously like lessons and whatnots. I'm so sianed about it right now.
It seems like there's no perks when it comes to this, cus
1. I have to make new friends all over again.
2. I have two lessons tomorrow, and my friend, who is in the same course as me, is not in the same grouping as me for any sessions, at all.
3. I have to make new friends for the second time when it comes to the second lesson, after lunch, cus it's a totally different group from the first session.
And, making friends is never my thing.
Never. ):<
To be honest, I haven't had any holidays/vacation this long before, the longest one (before this) is usually only one month longth and is very used to those one week nonsense that are usually bombarded with either suppl. classes, remedials and Ccas. Hah.
For the record, I have worked for a month and experienced some backstabbing hypocritical bitches along the way and lied a lot to get ugly clothes out of the way, making their way to make the world an uglier place (during work, that is).
I have experienced the second heartbreak (the first one being in 2008), which really brought me down, and slapped me back to reality and not believe in something that I used to believe for all my life.
I have been through the most nerve-wrecking moment of my coming-18 years of my life. My body literally shook and my palms were cold and wet, and I nearly fainted when I went up that seat to collect what I have worked 5 bleddy years for.
Right after that moment of nerves, I had the chance to go through a very well-mixed of emotions rushing and gushing through every single atom of me, when I know that my hard work really paid off, and I've made myself very very proud, of well.. myself. Hahaha! I felt like I was out of this horrible world at the moment and everything felt so magical, and there's this bit of me, feeling afraid that everything might just be a dream and then when I woke up, there comes the reality, the nightmare slapping me, in my face.
It was then a lot of weeks and many trips were made to town, and every where else that I have always been wanting to go, with the people I've said to meet up and do catching up with! Those were the days where I spent money, and I have awesome company and genuine emotions as rewards. (:
Played for Dreams in Turquoise and really had fun with section. The practices, the backstage moments, and everything else that belongs to it. To say that I have enjoyed myself in it, is really an understatement. And not forgetting the moments spent with the people that I'm the most comfortable with. Nothing can ever beat that. ♥
Also, spending a lot of time at home, online, nua-ing and doing online bridging programme, and not knowing that time passes so quickly when I was just complaining that March seems to drag on for forever. Hahaha!
I also realize that I've become too whiny (for my own good), and my tongue have become too acidic.
Not to mention my body clock is so so screwed up. (sigh~)
Not good. Not good at all! ):
I am dreading for 9a.m. to come already. ):
Okay, time to go and prepare things for tomo. ):
Till I manage to survive and come back to tell the tale alive and in one piece, again.
