Reason is not the key to solution.
Jan. 13th, 2010 03:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouWhy is it that everytime people say somethings, those things that never seems to be able to leave your head, is always so right?!
They were right, again. Even though I'ld never know who they are, anyway.
They were right about Success, being your best get-back, the sweetest revenge.
I used to think that what people say about me is always right esp. when they are
1) Older than me, and
2) They've been through the same thing that I'm going through at the mo.
But not anymore.
I don't believe in whatever they say about me, anymore because I have proved it to myself and to them that they are wrong.
And, not just once.
It gets really annoying when I think back at what they've said about me, about the things that I'm doing, and how things would turn out for me.
No, I'm not having and making things work out for me just because of how people think that I would fail, and well, never getting to where I want to be. The reverse psychology doesn't work for me, because I've learnt and not let people's words get to me, lest to bring me down.
But what really is inside, is the want to prove these people wrong.
Prove them so wrong that they'll never be able to look at me, and use that mocking tone to talk to me, but the other way round.
The satisfaction, really.
They were right, again. Even though I'ld never know who they are, anyway.
They were right about Success, being your best get-back, the sweetest revenge.
I used to think that what people say about me is always right esp. when they are
1) Older than me, and
2) They've been through the same thing that I'm going through at the mo.
But not anymore.
I don't believe in whatever they say about me, anymore because I have proved it to myself and to them that they are wrong.
And, not just once.
It gets really annoying when I think back at what they've said about me, about the things that I'm doing, and how things would turn out for me.
No, I'm not having and making things work out for me just because of how people think that I would fail, and well, never getting to where I want to be. The reverse psychology doesn't work for me, because I've learnt and not let people's words get to me, lest to bring me down.
But what really is inside, is the want to prove these people wrong.
Prove them so wrong that they'll never be able to look at me, and use that mocking tone to talk to me, but the other way round.
The satisfaction, really.
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January has been okay so far, but not the best to start of the year, if you get what I mean.
Sure, I am very very very content with my Olevels results and all, but the thing now is the choosing of 12 choices.
Already, the recieving-results part already make me feel so sick with fear, panic and a pail-full of anxiety, then now comes with more headaches of choosing 12 choices.
As if I'm not indecisive enough already!
I'll not be surprised if I were to find my 2nd strand of white hair by the end of this week!! (yes, 2nd, cus I counted. HAHAHA!)
What a way to start off a new year, huh?! -.-"
Sure, I am very very very content with my Olevels results and all, but the thing now is the choosing of 12 choices.
Already, the recieving-results part already make me feel so sick with fear, panic and a pail-full of anxiety, then now comes with more headaches of choosing 12 choices.
As if I'm not indecisive enough already!
I'll not be surprised if I were to find my 2nd strand of white hair by the end of this week!! (yes, 2nd, cus I counted. HAHAHA!)
What a way to start off a new year, huh?! -.-"
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There's this feeling that I have been through so much, too much for someone who's going to turn 18.
Waaay too much.
I want to be six again, when all I have to worry is which dress to wear, what colour to use to finish my colouring homework, and when to catch my favourite tv shows.
(sigh)
Tillagain.
Waaay too much.
I want to be six again, when all I have to worry is which dress to wear, what colour to use to finish my colouring homework, and when to catch my favourite tv shows.
(sigh)
Tillagain.
