Headfirst, fearless.

[coolerthanthou]

Okay, technically speaking, my Coursework B will only be over by tomorrow. But since I've finished my draft for the last bit for it, and tomo will only be the final editting of everything, I'm back to remove the mini hiatus.

Things are going fast, and I'm definitely trying my best to keep up even though most of the people doesn't believe me and go: well. It doesn't show in your work. How are we going to be convinced that you are even trying?
Sometimes, I really feel like throwing things at those people's faces. Just like how I would to those stupid people who comes up to me, asking stupid questions like: have you done your work? when the deadline is like.. last night.

I know I haven't been really nice these days, with a pretty acidic tongue, lashing at almost every(little)thing that just irks me, or simply just because its not visually pleasing. I'm just being completely honest, but not in a way that many can accept.
&to those that I've lashed out on, fyi, I don't think that I need to be sorry. I'm just being myself, being honest and thought that you ought to know.

I know I need to curb that. I've been warned, before I offend people.
I don't think I have the need for enemies. At least not now.

Right. I've gotten my name down under the 'compulsory' column for Night Study until October. I find that really vulgar and unbearable when I got to know that news. After two sessions of Night Study, I still find it vulgar but not the unbearable part.
In fact, it was pretty bearable, with my favourite girls and my really hilarious classmates (think: Mervyn. God, please bless our dear class manager! hahaha!).
Plus, I think I'll get to earn one buck from each Night Study from next week and onwards, together with Eunice, since Ameera decided to bet with us that she'ld be able to keep her gap tight, if not one buck each for me and Eunice.

Easy money. Really easy money from the Pocohontas (Inside joke!). HAHAHA!

People always say: if you work hard enough, you'll get what you want. Something like, you reap what you have sowed.
But it doesn't seem to add up when I was being told that N levels was just a farce. They just want to get the most of us through to sec 5; I work damn hard on it, and thought that it was my heyday when I collected my results. I never knew that it was just a farce. To think of it now, it's like my hard work is being flushed down the drain by some other people.
It's more than just depressing.

And, I guess the only way out is to continue to keep pushing myself forward, and hoping that everything goes on smoothly.

School has never been treating me well and no one should witness the state of Cheryl right now. I can't seem to find the exact word to describe me right now. Its like at the ultimatum, on the negative side, of course.
I can never survive a day in hell without dozing off in classes and a nap when I get back from it. It's so bad that words can't seem to be able to do the least bit of justice, I swear.

I have many needs, and a few of the list of thousands and millions, would be sleep, sleep and more sleep. Top it off with a 100GB memory space to get through everything. Thank You Very Much.

Tillagain.