I never knew I could get hurt like this.
Jul. 8th, 2008 08:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolerthanthouBack to school, after a weekend + one day holiday.
Nothing much, other than the part where Yours Truly goes: School's draining my life away.
I bet you guys are sick of reading that. So do I (by typing that).
I don't totally abhor taking bus rides, alone, but it's just that.. I tend to think more, and get myself all emo nemo after that.
Suddenly, I feel very very tired, of everything.
No, not those kind of tired that all I need is just sleep.
But tired, as in weary, impatient, digusted kind of tired.
Assignments are flying everywhere, teachers zooming in and out, projects deadlines, taking breathers only during recess breaks, occassional toliet trips before and after lessons, remediations that never seems to end...
No, I'm not going to type paragraphs and paragraphs here, expressing my hates and my displeasures upon this shits that everyone's going through.
I don't exactly know how to phrase this/put this in words.
It's just this feeling inside, that's coming from doing mundane activities daily, getting the same instructions and sometimes just following blindly, no life, no free time for you to go crazy with friends, no mood for crazy moments cus the exams' around the corner, no one's willing to get some time out to go crazy with you cus' everyone's mugging and while thinking of this, the feeling of guilt is piling onto me, and it just accumulates on.
You call it, the exams stress?
I don't know.
Maybe I should just live with it.
And,
Some have been coming to me, bitching about this and that, complaining and whining about stuffs and those people that they hate, and sometimes I do wonder, where on this mighty planet Earth do you guys find the time to get all this nonsense and why are you telling me all these?
Not that I'm complaining, but it's just plain weird, to me, at least.
Sometimes, when we speak, we just have so many things on our minds and we just shoot, neglecting the other party's feelings.
Why? Because I'm always on the receiving ends these days and so I know.
I've tried to understand what they're trying to tell me, but it doesn't work. My mind is usually on a "shut down" mode whenever people comes to me and start:"OH, Cheryl! You know ah..."
And all that I can ever reply to all this : "oh. hahah. ay. Sometimes it's just like that lah."
But really, the next time when you want to go bitch about someone to your friend or whoever, please ask.
Please ask whether they have the mood to, or not. Please ask whether they're tired or not. Please.
---
I still do think about it, still cry about it all the time behind closed doors.
I still cannot let it go despite people telling me: it's time to let go, and life still goes on.
I still can't.
In this modern world, and with high-technologies everywhere,
There's still love, no?
Tillagain.
Nothing much, other than the part where Yours Truly goes: School's draining my life away.
I bet you guys are sick of reading that. So do I (by typing that).
I don't totally abhor taking bus rides, alone, but it's just that.. I tend to think more, and get myself all emo nemo after that.
Suddenly, I feel very very tired, of everything.
No, not those kind of tired that all I need is just sleep.
But tired, as in weary, impatient, digusted kind of tired.
Assignments are flying everywhere, teachers zooming in and out, projects deadlines, taking breathers only during recess breaks, occassional toliet trips before and after lessons, remediations that never seems to end...
No, I'm not going to type paragraphs and paragraphs here, expressing my hates and my displeasures upon this shits that everyone's going through.
I don't exactly know how to phrase this/put this in words.
It's just this feeling inside, that's coming from doing mundane activities daily, getting the same instructions and sometimes just following blindly, no life, no free time for you to go crazy with friends, no mood for crazy moments cus the exams' around the corner, no one's willing to get some time out to go crazy with you cus' everyone's mugging and while thinking of this, the feeling of guilt is piling onto me, and it just accumulates on.
You call it, the exams stress?
I don't know.
Maybe I should just live with it.
And,
Some have been coming to me, bitching about this and that, complaining and whining about stuffs and those people that they hate, and sometimes I do wonder, where on this mighty planet Earth do you guys find the time to get all this nonsense and why are you telling me all these?
Not that I'm complaining, but it's just plain weird, to me, at least.
Sometimes, when we speak, we just have so many things on our minds and we just shoot, neglecting the other party's feelings.
Why? Because I'm always on the receiving ends these days and so I know.
I've tried to understand what they're trying to tell me, but it doesn't work. My mind is usually on a "shut down" mode whenever people comes to me and start:"OH, Cheryl! You know ah..."
And all that I can ever reply to all this : "oh. hahah. ay. Sometimes it's just like that lah."
But really, the next time when you want to go bitch about someone to your friend or whoever, please ask.
Please ask whether they have the mood to, or not. Please ask whether they're tired or not. Please.
---
I still do think about it, still cry about it all the time behind closed doors.
I still cannot let it go despite people telling me: it's time to let go, and life still goes on.
I still can't.
In this modern world, and with high-technologies everywhere,
There's still love, no?
Tillagain.
