Disappointments.

Disappointments + Anxiety

will never be able to produce anything that can be placed at the nearer end of the Positive spectrum.
That is only when we can actually materialize things intangible like thoughts and feelings.

For now, let's just say that talk isn't all that important and ideas are bulletproof.
Except that I am trying my best to put both of them into words right now. ):

Not forgetting that it took me a while to be able to fully comprehend that I am not exactly angry (or going into the rage) about the whole situation but more of being disappointed that it happened..

Again.

Now you tell me what am I supposed to do now.
For I have thought wrong about it all and now I'm completely clueless as to how am I supposed to deal with this, with myself now.

You tell me what do you want me do.
Please.