What else works?!

What do you do when your heart feels like there's two forces on both opposite ends pulling, ripping it apart?

I have no idea what else I can do to stop this pain anymore.
 

&Sometimes I wished I can be oblivious to things that I don't want to see that is breaking my heart ever so slowly.

What bull and shit they say about the things that are dependent on the choices that we make in life. Which cow are they lying to?!

Bai.