It's all that i can ever do.

Why does it hurts whenever i think about it?
Why does it haunt me, so badly? 

It's just another friend being robbed away from me, but why does it hurts so much this time?
Well done, bitch. You've won.
I bet you're happy now. 
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Like what R said;
Why are those who are not at fault, the most affected?

Have you all spared a thought for us? Do you think that it's just him that angry and disappointed with you all?! Do you think that it's pleasant to listen to all those sounds that it hurts so much to even, listen.
C'mon lah, why are you all so fucking selfish? Have you all ever thought that who would be the most affected?
HAVE YOU ALL EVER STOOD IN OUR SHOES, AND GIVE A THOUGHT ABOUT IT?
We all want things, but have you all ever work hard for it? Or just want things and think that they'll magically appear?!
I'm sure the whole world, knows that nothing in the world is free, except for air. And i'm sure that you all know about this.
SO WHY AREN'T YOU GUYS NOT WORKING HARD TO ACHIEVE WHAT YOU ALL WANT?
unless you're telling me that all this shit that you've produced is what you wanted. Then, i have nothing but to say that you're so fucking selfish.

I have faith, and trust in this section. But somehow, you all seems to crush it everytime, without fail.
Is my faith and trust in the section, your thorn in your flesh?!  Why are you'll so bend on crushing it? WHY?! 
I've always believed in you guys, thinking that you all will work hard, to prove to him that we aren't what he've said. But why? Is his words so pleasant to you that you guys want to hear it, time after time?!
&when i thought that, after all that, that came from him, you guys would come down more frequently, and practice. BUT WHY DON'T I SEE THAT?! IS IT THAT TOUGH TO GET YOUR ASS DOWN AND PRACTICE?! I DON'T SEE WHY YOU GUYS CAN'T DO THAT, WHEN I CAN!
I GET DOWN THERE, WHENEVER I CAN, TO PRACTICE, BUT DO YOU ALL DO THAT?!
OHPLEASE, don't give me all those reasons of yours about you having your classes, your tuitions, your stuffs at home. I'm so sick of them. I had enough of all those. Do you all really think that i'm that free, to get down everyday, to practice?! I do have my stuffs at home, i do have my studies to worry as well. DO YOU ALL REALLY THINK THAT I HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO GO THERE ALMOST EVERYDAY, TO SPEND MY LIFE THERE?! 
Oh, another excuse: "parents don't allow me to go". What a perfect cover.
Do you really think that you can get me through by this cover?! I heard this ten million times already, can't you get something more creative?
Like do you think that my parents allowed me to go? 
MY MUM SAID THAT SHE REGRETTED ALLOWING ME TO JOIN BAND. 
How about that?! Can you imagine how much i've gone through to go for band practices? Can you imagine yourself, arguing and shouting and screaming at your mother because she doesn't allow you to go for practices? Can you imagine, that you're being threatened that you can't get home again, if you dare to step out of the house to go for band?! You can't, can you?
I went through that, for almost three years. Tell me that excuse again, and i'll make sure, i'll talk to your parents.

&you all just don't know how much it hurts for me, to accept such stuffs again, and again.
You all just don't know. Don't know how much i treasure this section, don't know how much i want this section to prosper to greater heights, and don't know how much it hurts inside whenever everything comes crushing and smashing down.

OH, THANK YOU FOR THE PAIN. THANK YOU.
Where is the cornet section, that i onced knew?! The ohfive batch, I want it back, now. 
)':<

I take pride in whatever i do, but do you?!

I've said my piece, and it's up to you guys, now.