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coolerthanthouI used to think that we're not different - not that vast till one can easily how far away we are from the opposites (if that ever made sense), but as I came along till this far, I think I know what's the difference between us. Finally.
It's actually quite simple, yet I made myself to block away all these thoughts for I know that they would be making me sad and makes me doubt myself at the same time.
I would also say that it's a decision that I've made because I feel that I have had enough of sadness in my life and not wanting to add more misery to myself.
But I was wrong.
For that was the key that set us apart, and brought us to where we are, now.
I've seen way too much stuff and felt so much more than what you've ever been through.
I once thought that everyone have their own problems that would bring them down because I don't like to think that I am alone, until you proved me wrong and told me that you had nothing to worry and feel sad about.
To be really honest, I was damn amazed for I never knew that this could be actually possible.
I feel happy for you to be that way, but then again, it's not something nice after all, I realized.
For you'll never understand fully how it is like to be in pain (not physically), and how is it like to be bogged down by shits that are always piling up onto you and they never seems to cease.
And your eyes are still 'alive' while I have already lost the spark in mine.
Just like the way I can see threstals and not you.
What else can I say and do now?
It's all done. And gone.
Time for bed.
Tillagain.
It's actually quite simple, yet I made myself to block away all these thoughts for I know that they would be making me sad and makes me doubt myself at the same time.
I would also say that it's a decision that I've made because I feel that I have had enough of sadness in my life and not wanting to add more misery to myself.
But I was wrong.
For that was the key that set us apart, and brought us to where we are, now.
I've seen way too much stuff and felt so much more than what you've ever been through.
I once thought that everyone have their own problems that would bring them down because I don't like to think that I am alone, until you proved me wrong and told me that you had nothing to worry and feel sad about.
To be really honest, I was damn amazed for I never knew that this could be actually possible.
I feel happy for you to be that way, but then again, it's not something nice after all, I realized.
For you'll never understand fully how it is like to be in pain (not physically), and how is it like to be bogged down by shits that are always piling up onto you and they never seems to cease.
And your eyes are still 'alive' while I have already lost the spark in mine.
Just like the way I can see threstals and not you.
What else can I say and do now?
It's all done. And gone.
Time for bed.
Tillagain.
